Beyond Stressed.

I don't know if I've ever had so much to worry about at one time. Everything seems to be happening at the same time. I just recently had to move out of my house, because I was not signing another year lease with my roommate. So my boyfriend and I are searching for a small house to rent, meanwhile I'm staying at my parents. Oh and he works out of state on cell phone towers for a living, SO, he's gone 5-6 days a week, or in this rare case it's going on day 7 or 8? It's pretty rough going through so much crap and not having your significant other around to hold you and tell you it's going to be fine. But I know, he needs this job so we can afford a place and a life together. I can't deny everyday I pray he finds something else though. Speaking of jobs! Another of my problems, my job, which has been part-time all summer anyway, is ending this week. So I have to find another one and anyone living in a small town in the fall/winter knows that's not so easy. Then in the summer these foreign people come over and take our jobs too!

Anyway, despite all that's going on, I'm just trying to breathe and think positively. If I thought constantly nothing was going to work out, it probably never would. Though I hate being at my parents right now, it's helping me save money for a few weeks and I don't really have to buy food, have a computer and washer and dryer handy. As much as I hate having my boyfriend gone so much, it makes the time we do have together so much more meaningful, I know it's cheesy but I just try to enjoy every minute with him and am thankful for everytime we just get to snuggle up to each other and relax. We've had a rough relationship in the past and continue to have little spats here and there but I think we're the strongest we've ever been and know we are miserable without each other. As for my job situation, I've been very lucky in the fact that an opportunity usually pops up just in time. There's a couple jobs I've heard about so I'm hopeful one of them will work out. Hoping for the best!

Unwritten roommate rules.

One year ago, I signed a lease with one of my best friends at the time, now a year later, (after moving out) our friendship is barely hanging by a thread. I don't know how many of you have had to live with a friend and it may be different for girls but, OH my god, is it not what I bargained for. At first things were great, it was exciting moving out on my own for the first time, living with one of my best girl friends. Months into the situation, you start picking up on little things. Little things that you even think to yourself, "why does this bother me as much as it does?". It almost felt like a game, like what obnoxious thing can I do to piss Katie off today? For instance; wake up to pee and looky there, an empty toilet paper roll. Go to the kitchen and it's like a game of jenga with the garbage, she's just hoping I'll put on the last wobbly piece and have to take it out for her. Coffee grounds all over the kitchen sink and in my ice cubes. Coming home drunk at 3am with my boyfriend's ex, and waking up my boyfriend who WAS asleep on the couch. It all becomes so very annoying. I don't understand how some people can be so lazy or down right ignorant.

On top of all the really slobbish things I encountered, I also felt like something really shady was going on with the money situation. I'd give my half for a power bill and it would come back the next month saying it was never paid. Of course Miss smarty-pants left a credit card statement on the table one day... and I'm not exaggerating I bet 7 or 8 charges were either bars or restaurants, in which booze was bought. Yes, folks my money for the bills was going to her bar tab. Awesome, aye?

I just moved out of there 2 days ago and she had the nerve to try and get me to pay an extra month's rent and ask to take my security to fill up the fuel tank. Pay for her fuel for the winter!? No thank you. I know she's panicking because she didn't think it through when she decided to resign the lease without a roommate lined up but how low do you have to go to try and rip your friend off?

Anyway this is just a warning for anyone planning on moving in with a friend... and a chance for my to rant about my experience. I'm going to be moving in with my boyfriend, so we'll see if living with the opposite sex is any easier!

Here's my own personal tips:


1.] Don't try to live with your really close friends if you want them to stay your really close friends in the future.

2.] ALWAYS try to pay with a check & record what you wrote it for, the date, etc. It's like your own personal receipt. (Never pay any bills with cash!)

3.] Make sure you get to look at any bills coming in, so you know for sure what you owe.

4.] Set ground rules when you first move in. Make sure you're both on the same page.

5.] Keeping up with the house should be a joint effort.

6.] Be RESPECTFUL. If your roomie has to wake up early for work or you know your house has really thin walls, don't stay up till the wee hours of the morning being loud with your drunk buddies!

Back to school? Kind of...

Well, hello, to whoever stumbles across this. I'm officially losing my "blog site virginity".
I've never done this, but I take it I just choose a topic and rant? Well that's my plan anyway...

I'm freshly 21 years of age, and I'm sure like a lot of others out there, still don't know what to do with my life! Especially nowadays it's so hard to get the funds to do anything. Right after high school I went to a Cosmetology school, which only lasted me about 2 months and 200 hours worth of training. I was commuting and had to constantly buy supplies for class and just didn't have the money to keep going. Not to mention when it came time to start cutting actual peoples hair, I was terrified! I felt like I wasn't ready at all. It made me question if that career was really right for me. Looking back I feel like I wasn't confident enough at the time, I wish I would have waited to go, so I wouldn't have been so timid about everything. Ever since I've been going from job to job, most of them being seasonal. I've decided the path I'd like to try is Web Design but school is so outrageously expensive, even with financial aid and the thought of racking up student loans is just... nauseating. So for now, if I can find steady work, I'm going to try one of these online schools like Ashworth or Penn Foster, that allow you to get a diploma or career certificate in a field of study. It's between $800 and $1,000 and they let you pay in monthly payments of about $40. It seems like the best option right now, granted it's not a degree but it will at least get me started and let me find out for sure if it's what I want to do.

I still think all the time, man, I really love doing hair and make-up... I also love taking pictures, editing photos... I could see myself designing clothes, all these things that I'd love to do but don't even know where to begin. I figure whatever I do, having a web design background will be extremely helpful, because no matter what I do I will be able to make my own website for my company, or brand or whatever. I can only hope I'm making sense and this will work out for me!
POSITIVE THOUGHTS!